Matthew 5:6

Memory Verse for the week.

Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they shall be satisfied.

Matthew 5:6

Trials

Memory Verse

Consider it all joy, my brethren, when you encounter various trails, knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance. And let endurance have its perfect result, so that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing.

James 1:2-4

Sewing Lessons

Hopefully this post will be a little more positive than my last one.

I've been wanting to learn how to sew for a while now so I took my birthday money and went out and bought a sewing machine and signed up for lessons. The lessons are 6 weeks on Monday nights for a couple of hours. So far I've learned alot. I'm still pretty confused as we are going through making our project but at the end its like wow, all those little steps made that?! Its pretty fun and I'm enjoying it.

Our first project was a flat bottom drawstring bag and our second one was a zippered pillow. I wanted to put the pillow in Kya's crate so she could use it but turns out it is too big. Thats why the fabric is kind of crazy. The picture is hard to tell what it is but it is black fabric with white paw prins.

Maybe someday I'll be able to make some curtains and other fun things!

Yet Another Glitch

Well we have hit yet another glitch in our infertility journey. I feel like I'm on this never ending roller coaster. Its up and then down and we just keep going around and around. I'm not for sure what I posted last about our appointment with the fertility specialist so I'll kind of recap and sorry for repeating. We met with the specialist and decided we were going to do the laproscopic procedure at the beginning of 2011. The procedure was to see if there was something going on (endometriosis, blocked tube) that is causing problems. Its kind of a long story to explain on a blog as to why we were waiting until 2011 but I'll try to give you the main info. We assumed that after the procedure we would have more expenses relating to the infertility. Treatment for what could be wrong, possibly trying intrauterine insemination. We decided to wait so that at the beginning of the year we would hit our out of pocket maximum right away and then the rest of the stuff would be pretty much covered.

Our glitch is this: we received a letter in the mail yesterday that as of the beginning of 2011 we have NO infertility coverage at all. WHAT??? Are you kidding me?? After I went through all that hassle of getting pre-certified for treatment and the hassle of getting my records from 3 different doctors and finally getting an appointment...now we aren't going to have any coverage??

I don't know what we will do now. We have a couple of options:

1. Get pregnant before Jan. 2011 (YEA RIGHT)
2. Find out if PPO will cover infertility and if so switch to that next year. The downfall with this is it costs more per month and also has a higher out of pocket. (We're trying to save money...not spend it all)
3. If PPO doesn't cover infertility then have the procedure now (within the next few months) and decide what to do after that. The downfall with this is just spending more money too because we'll meet our out of pocket at the end of this year and then turn around and have to do it all over again right away next year.
4. Forget about the whole thing and be done with it.
5. Truly truly trust in the Lord's will and His plan. Be content with where the Lord has put us and that He can see the big picture and He knows all these things we're feeling and how much this hurts. His ways/reasons are perfect and we have to accept that.

I know that number 5 is our option but this is just soooo hard emotionally and I'm really struggling with this.

Memory Verse

Just posting the memory verse for the week.

And not only this, but we also exult in our tribulations, knowing that tribulation brings about perseverance; and perseverance, proven character; and proven character, hope;

Romans 5:3-4

Have a great week!

New Perspective

I gained a little bit of a new/different perspective this weekend while babysitting. While dealing with infertility I've been frustrated by comments I've gotten from people. Usually if I am talking with someone who has children and I'm explaining how badly I want them I often get the response, "Oh just wait someday if you have kids you'll wish you could go back to the day when it was just the two of you." I felt like after that comment that person didn't understand my position or know how I felt. Maybe I didn't understand their perspective?

I was babysitting my boss's two children. One is almost 7 years old and the other is almost 1 year old. I felt like I didn't spend enough time with Baylee (the older one) and my whole day revolved around Sawyer (the younger one). Making sure he didn't fall down and crack his head on something, crawl where he wasn't supposed to, feedings, changings, changing his clothes after he peed out his diaper and then no sooner than after I just changed him he pooped so I had to change him all over again (which he did not like ANY of this).

At the end of the day I was wiped out and fast asleep on the couch by 11 that night.

Praying that next time I watch them I will be able to juggle the responsibility better.

Now off to watch the Dolphins game. I think this might be their year...(maybe?!?)

Love

Memory verse for the week.

But God demonstrates His own love toward us, in that while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us.

Romans 5:8